Satisfaction

Every day I have tons of assignments and tasks to do. I write them all out in a big list and hope to reach the satisfaction of crossing out everything. Today, I reached this! It is such a nice feeling. I literally did my entire weekend's worth of homework plus all of my work for the next two days. That includes a lab, homework assignments, an essay, and so on. Tons of time consuming nonsense. But I feel great now. 

It's really crazy how completely flipped my mood can be, based on how productive I have been. If I spend all day laying around, being lazy, watching tv shows on my computer, being on tumblr/instagram/facebook, also known as all of the things I REALLY want to be doing, I feel completely unfulfilled and unhappy and gross. Whereas when I set goals for myself, and complete them, I get into this crazy high where I just want to keep being productive and am completely satisfied with myself. It's great!

At the same time I feel a little crazy. But sitting and doing tedious things for five hours straight will naturally create that feeling. I wish there could be a happy medium, where I could find time to do the things I want to, while still getting everything done and having that sense of satisfaction.

Free time - time spent on fun activities = gross unfulfilled satisfaction

Free time - time spent on productive things = complete satisfaction

But I guess that's what weekends are for.