The Departure

So in an earlier blog I mentioned my boyfriend, well it looks like I will tell you about where we stand as of now. We have known each other for four years and have dated for three years; Sept.10,2010. He is a year older than me and was my first everything, and the same goes for him. I really believed that our high school years would not have been the same without each other. We really have helped each other grow into the young adults that we are now. When his father passed away that was the worst day of my life hearing all the pain in his cries and the confusion on his face. We were in my living room just talking and laughing before he got the call. Our laughs turned into cries just at the drop of a dime. This is only one example of how we have always been by each other's side.
Since then he decided to go off to the army and not complete college which is totally fine with me, because I come from a military family. During this pass year we kind of have been arguing a lot, and as much as we want to be together our personalities definitely clash. I know it's because we are growing up, and we aren't the same teenagers we once were. So I decided that we shouldn't be a couple anymore, although the words "I love you" are always tossed in our conversations.
Now he is leaving this Monday October 1, 2013 and we haven't spent time together at all, I never get calls, or a steady conversation through a text. I know we aren't together but I personally thought that we still had the understanding that we are still important people in each other's lives. He has made time for these "fair weather" friends and of course his family but, has not done the same for me. I'm honestly really hurt by his actions and it has showed me how important I really am to him right now. I'm not saying he doesn't love me, but I am saying that it sure isn't being reciprocated. I even mentioned me riding the bus to Houston just to spend one day out of his not so busy life, and that's not even going to happen.
I'm in such a weird place in my life right now and I just hate that everything is just changing right in front of my eyes. Everything is not all good, but I guess it's not all bad. Pray for a real thug! lol

p.s. yes I am the person that makes jokes to hide my pain. I can admit that.

Best,

A heartbroken human, BUT I will be alright