This can't be happening!!!

I'm so mad that I'm coming down with a cold on Halloween!!! I had plans to go do Halloween-like stuff with my friends tonight but now I'm not sure if I will because I feel terrible. I slept through my eight o'clock class and didn't wake up until noon. That's how you really know I'm sick because my body would normally wake me up but it's completely shut down. I have a sore throat and my body just feels weak. It's probably only a cold but UGH! I just hate being sick. My roommate is so nice, though because she pulled out all the medicine she has for me. She made me swallow a spoonful of honey, which was gross, but my throat doesn't feel as bad anymore. I just need to get through these last two classes of the day so that I can just lie down again. Maybe if I feel better by about five I'll go out. Hopefully I do because I love Halloween! At the same time, my health is more important.

Nothing To Write About

I honestly dont have anything to write about. My life is kinda compared to bland bread. BORING. Halloween is today. I'm so excited!! My mom fed xed it to me to get here at 10:30 this morning. SOLID mom!!! She rocks! I honestly am going to sit here and talk about nothing. These blogs are kinda a cool thing. There a way to let us all randomly talk or vent or get out anything we want to say. Good idea. I am typing this at 1:30- class is at 2:00. Classic. I honestly do not enjoy one ounce of anything that has to do with PACE. It's annoying and tedious and I already know what I want to do with my life so I find it really unnecessary. I am having a debate on if I should go out tonight and study for my 9 am political science test now or be a good studious girl and study all night and be well rested and prepared. But then i miss out on halloween...... and if i did go out i could still sleep friday and catch up on all that I missed. THE STRUGGLE.

Tailgating

So this Saturday was Homecoming and I got to tailgate with my Organization HHC. It was so much fun but the process was crazy! The first thing I had to do was wake up at 6 CORRECTION 5:30 in the morning. Then we had to claim spots and all these frat boys tried to bribe us to give up our spot because they were going to have a "huge tailgate, and they don't want to ruin ours." they seriously had the nerve but we stood our grown and when the day was over our tailgate was the best one yet we had all the black Greek organizations out, the hottest DJ, loudest music, and the most up beat people yet!! I really di have fun but I was so tired once the end of the day came around and I thought I would want to party that night. Instead I took myself to taco bell took a shower and watched vampire dairies until I fell asleep. Subconsciously I guess I told myself that I really needed to get up and clean up my room wash my clothes and wash my hair. So I woke up at 7 o'clock a.m. and around 10 I was back in bed and didn't get out of that bed until Monday morning at 7:31 a.m. What a great weekend!!

My Foul Mood

  I'm tired of making C's. I'm tired, literally, of not getting an sleep. I'm tired of not having any money. I'm tired of sleeping on a twin bed. I'm tired of eating shitty food. I'm tired of not being able to stuff on the weekends. I'm tired of looking at ugly couples walking the quad. I'm tired of annoying people. And finally I'm tired of blogging.

  I have to make above a 2.7 or I'm out of social probation yet all I do it make C's. I never get more then about 3-5 hours of sleep and that's on a good day. I've spent through all my money and officially a broke college student. I don't fit on my tiny bed because I like to sprawl out when I sleep. I live off swipes which means I eat from the same places every freaking day. Do to pledge ship I'm busy all weekend; never getting to enjoy my weekend or relax ever. Every time I walk on the quad I 2 ugly people either kissing or holding hands. So many people say stupid stuff out in class and I don't have a response to stupidity. Blogging is no incessant and I always forget about it until the class before.

  I'm going to spend more time in the library. I'm going to start sneaking in naps when I can. I'm going to cut down on spending and save what I have left. I'm going to have to buy a foam topping to make my bed more comfortable. I'm doing to have to start to try new things in the dinning halls. Nothing I can do about that except maybe keep a flask on me. I'm going to avoid the quad or embarrass ugly people when the do nasty things. I'm going to have to put annoying people in their place, basically tell them to shut up. And I guess I'll send this blog since I have no choice.

Monotony

This week has been up and down. There was some good and some bad. I had a lot more school work than usual and I was barely able to keep up. I think I'm getting tired of the routine I've fallen into. Everyday it's the same thing and I'm getting sick and tired of it. I'm tired of seeing the same faces everyday. I'm also losing interest in everything and becoming even more apathetic about everything. I'm probably going home this weekend so I think that'll be a good break from everything. I'll get to see some old friends and eat actual food so I'm looking forward to it.

keys

Last night during the hurricane in San Marcos I lost my keys.  My key to my truck, room, house, bathroom, and mailbox are all gone.  Literally everything that I need is gone.  I am going to have to pay to get this taken care of, and its going to suck.  I can not drive anywhere, and that is something that is very important right now.  All of my things for school are currently locked in my truck. 
So instead of finishing this blog, I am going to try to take care of this situation right now, because I am just wasting time.  Sorry if this doesn't meet the word count requirement, but im in a pretty bad situation right now.

I Remembered

I forgot to write a blog last week. The moment I walked into the seminar class was when I realized that I had forgotten. I was on my phone for ten or fifteen minutes trying to sign in, but I made a different email and could not figure what it was. Anyways, that’s where procrastination gets me. Also last week I waited until the last day to write my essay. That night I went to a Halloween party and was so relieved that I had completed everything. This weekend I have part of another essay due and I haven’t started it. Luckily it is due on Sunday so I’ll have tomorrow evening and Saturday to type up a rough draft. I should really stop procrastinating to stop procrastination.

The Rain

    As all of you know it has rained a lot recently, this may be normal for some of you but it is not so for me.  I am use to living in an area which gets a very small amount of rain each year.  Let me try to put this into perspective, where I come from a year in which it rains twice a month is a wet year.  Now I'm living here where it rains at least once a year and usually more often than that.  This may not seem like a big deal but it is a bigger change than I thought it would be for me.  I honestly expected it to rain the same amount here as it does in my home town and then I come here and it's wet almost every day.  This isn't bad, it's actually much better for the plants that live here, I just don't particularly like it when it rains.  The main reason I don't like the rain is because I hate getting my clothes wet unless I am expecting it and dressed for the occasion.  I do like it when it's cloudy though, just because it is cooler than when its not cloudy.  I liked it when it rained back home, but that was because it was a long time between rainy days and even then I almost never had to walk through it very much if at all.  Here when it rains I have to walk a mile in the rain and hope that it doesn't soak through my back pack and ruin my notes. 
    Rain is good and rainy days are good, I would just rather they came with a little more rest in between them.

My Roommate

So I have this roommate right, and I have known her for a while. We worked at a camp together for about 2 summers now, and her boyfriend attends here as well and also worked with us at camp. Don't get me wrong I love her but sometimes she talks about poop too much. She wrote it on our door for the world to see. She also is in a sorority. She is very indecisive, and dyslexic, and gets excited really easily and has the attention span of a squirrel. Sometimes I just want to sleep, but then she turns on the air and takes my covers off and yells "Get up", I honestly wanted to punch her. She likes to remind me about things, that sometimes im just girl I got this. She also randomly yells, "I'm trending!" to people she doesn't know. Despite all of this, she's actually really cool! We are somewhat best friends, and by somewhat I mean totes.

Saturday Afternoon

 This weekend I went to the tailgate, I really wanted to go because it was homecoming, even though I did have a few other things to do. However it was really worth it. My friend and I went in the afternoon not knowing what to expect because it was our first tailgate for both of us. At first we didn’t really knew what to do so we just walked around, but then we saw people who we had met before so we started hanging out with them. We walked around the whole parking lot just to see what was there and to see new people. We then stayed awhile in a place towards one of the ends of the parking lot, where most people where at due to the music. I had a lot of fun getting to know new people and also having fun with old friends. I am so glad that I actually had the time to go the homecoming tailgate, because I got my mind distracted from school work and actually do something fun since I have not been to any other fun events since school started.  I have always been trying to study because I don’t want to fail any of my classes and taking sixteen hours for your first semester is definitely a huge change. Getting my mind off from school for a little bit was a great distraction for me because it got some stress off my shoulders and a new fresh start for the next couple of weeks left of this semester.

MOST AMAZING EXPERIENCE OF MY ENTIRE LIFE!!!

The most amazing thing of my life happened last Thursday! I had tickets to see one of my most favorite rappers which was already exciting. No one in Texas really knows who Kevin Gates is because he’s a famous Louisiana rapper, but I’ve been listening to him for years now. Well, the thing that made it even more amazing was when I got out of seminar, I went back to my dorm to start getting ready. I was on twitter and I saw him tweet saying that he was having a meet and greet 2 hours before the concert. I had NO idea about it so I rushed because I was determined to meet him. I got to Austin as soon as my little car could get me there. The meet and greet was held at a small store on 6^th street and I kind of thought it was too good to be true till I was in line and saw him walk in the store. I almost died. I was 4^th in line and I was trying to think of anything and everything I could say to him. As I was thinking his DJ was talking to everyone in line and he asked me to follow him on Instagram, so I did. As I got closer my heart started beating faster and faster and I was trying to calm down. I feel like it was all a blur. I remember the guy told me it was my turn and I walked up to him and he looked at me, smiled, and then reached for a hug. I couldn’t contain myself anymore I started freaking out and on top of that, my mind went blank and I forgot everything I was going to say to him, so I told him how nice it was to meet him. He told me he appreciated me for listening to his music and supporting him and all I could say was “I love you.” Haha, I really couldn’t say anything else. He signed my arm gave me 2 more hugs then took pictures with me. My life was then complete. I walked out of there so happy, and nothing could make my day better, UNTIL I went to the concert. It was a great performance and he grabbed my hand, so I knew it was real *flips hair*. After the concert was over, I was leaving and his DJ called me over to where he was, and asked if I remembered him from the meet and greet. I told him yes and he asked me what I was doing that night. I told him I was just coming back to my dorm because I had a test in the morning and he told me I should go out and party with them. My mouth dropped and I didn’t have any idea what to say. I was unsure because I really did not want to fail that test, so he told me to give him my phone. He put saved his number in my phone and told me if I changed my mind to text him so he could tell me where they were at. Then he told me he hopes to see me and to have a great night. It wasn’t until I got halfway to San Marcos that I realized how much of an idiot I was for not going to party with them. I could’ve hung out with KEVIN GATES and I denied the opportunity for a test. I was disappointed in myself but on the bright side I got a 90 on my test!!!

Stress... how original!

It seems like everyone is making posts about being stressed out, but there is literally nothing else that is more relevant right now. Everything is stressful! I'm still trying to figure out ways to control my stress. The biggest factor for me is my health. If I get a good amount of sleep, and eat healthy, my stress is much easier to maintain. Lately, since I got a roommate, getting sleep has become progressively harder. She stays up relatively late, and has people over somewhat regularly, and it's really frustrating, because sleeping is the one certain way for me to regulate my sleep. I'm such an old woman! If I don't get at least 8 hours of sleep, I'm grumpy and groggy and pissed off all day.

If I could sleep 12 hours a night, I would. But it seems that at college, you're lucky if you can get half of that.

So, it seems I need to try to find new ways to manage my stress. Obviously getting a lot of sleep isn't really an option anymore.

Halloween!

            Halloween!! I love Halloween, and I am so excited for it to be here. Recently I went and bought a costume and I was in love with it. I realized  the next day that it was not worth sixty five dollars though. I thought about it a lot, if I was going to return it or keep it. I decided to return it though because that was money I wasn’t going to have with me. I felt I could create a better outfit from scratch and spend much less then I had. It was probably one of the best decisions I have had in a while. Now I have that money to spend on something much better than a costume. J

A students mood on a climate at TxState

I fell like i'm in a Saharan abyss with a body of students walking around in a cycle of heat and sweat only to burned to ash and to be morph into again student  the next day.  The heat is destroying my spirit and will to out the compound of Arnold. The world is hot flat and bore ding.

Jobs are Great.

Well, I got a job as a cashier at Chick-Fil-A. My boyfriend told me that it would be shit and I would hate it. But, he's wrong. Very wrong. I work 28 hours a week and I am going to be making at least $400 a pay period. If you ask me that's 28 of constructive activity that I was otherwise spending on my computer doing nothing. Or talking to him... I suppose that is why he is mostly mad. It means less time that I will be spending on him. But I think it'll be okay in the end. I have a lot of other free time and I had to ind some way to support my shopping habit and still be able to go places with my friends here. I love the other cashier I work with and I feel like I needed that extra money.

AND! I finally have another staff member to do my recommendation! And the staff member actually knows me so that is a huge plus because now I am that little bit closer to getting to Greece next fall.

Being Hospitalized

So last week/weekend was just dandy. I started taking antibiotics monday night and wednesday I started to feel as if I had heartburn. By thursday it became hard to swallow and I felt as if I was getting extremely bad heartburn. My mother told me it was best to go to a doctor back at home so I left thursday night for Dallas (at this point I am having trouble breathing). Turns out I have a chemical burn in my esophagus. WOOOO! SOLID! How it happened: Apparently I was suppose to drink an entire water bottle per antibiotic I took (? lol) and since I did not, the pill stayed put in my esophagus and dissolved in there making for a burn/life threatening issue. My doctor put my on this pepto tasting (sick nasty) pink drink to coat my throat and this acid pill to make sure no more acid rises up and makes it worse. She said many doctors would describe the pain I was feeling/am currently feeling as "mini heart attacks." Great. So basically I have to take this and she said "well you could ether get better or you could start coughing up blood -- oh and let me know if you see any black stool." OH? so my life is classic. (as usual) Another note- I absolutely LOVE explaining via email to my professors that I have a chemical burn in my esophagus because they completely- do not - believe me. *Cherry on top to my life*

Falling Behind

I am falling behind. I feel like I have so many things to do, but when I go to do them, I can't figure out what it is that I need to do. I have things for my sorority and projects for my classes and I'm just struggling balancing everything. I feel like I'm starting to do a little better though! It's just hard remembering when everything is due for what class. I'm thinking of getting a huge table calendar and writing everything on that so it's always there when I can see it. I'm not sure what else to do though so if anyone has any ideas I would really appreciate any advice!! 

Grades

I'm struggling in grades and i have to at least make a 2.6 gpa in order to remain active in my fraternity.

In Political science I'm making a D. I've failed 1 exam and 2 quizzes. My next big exam is tomorrow and I need to at least make a B in order to bring my grade up. My philosophy class I'm doing well in. I have my mid term paper to turn coming up and I feel the one I wrote is a pretty solid piece of work.

My Biology grade is around a low C. I got a low C on my last exam and I need to make sure I get a good one on the next. If i make a A/B on my next it will bring me up enough. I'm making a C in my math class and my next exam is tomorrow. If I score high on it, I'll be in good shape. My english class is going well. Not sure my grade but I'm confident that it's a good one. I've turned in all my work for it and put in good effort in my essays in there.

Then theres my US seminar class. We go to this class once a week and it's screwing me. I forget about it all the time. I write my blogs the class before it almost every time. I don't know what all we have to do in it and I'm pretty sure I'm way behind. I need help soon or i might fail a very easy class.

It Gets Better

It's funny how when you let stressful situations go, everything else gets better. I've never really worried about things as intensely as when I moved in here. I guess being in a new environment made me forget that lesson. It was good to relearn that lesson last week in class. Since then, I have had a great time without the excessive stress I was feeling. The second I let go of everything that was out of my control, those things improved so much because I had such a good outlook on them. Sure I haven't been 100% stress-free since then, but I have been so much happier and really enjoyed this past week thanks to what we did in class last week.

Stress, Stress, Stress and more Stress

This entire week so far has been nothing but stressful and I am so over it already. School work is kicking my butt, it's not that what the work I am doing is really that hard it is just time consuming which is really annoying. I have so much homework to do plus I am having stupid boy problems because he thinks he knows everything and I will be the first person to tell him he is wrong. Out of all of that I am trying to find time in the days to do something for my self like relax or whatever and even that is stressful, because all I can think about it all the other stuff I have to do and my mind just never stops it roams to different places and then I am like crap I have more to do than I thought. And just when I think that I have everything completed and there is nothing else for me to do school wise, I am bothered by the boy troubles or what else do I really have to do this week. I just need a break, I need a relaxing weekend where I can sit and be alone and enjoy myself without having to think about anyone else in the process.

Fire Alarm

    Last night, or should I say early this morning, I was rudely awoken by the sound of the fire alarm blaring in the hallway.  At first I simply thought that I was dreaming of the sound, but then I realized something confounding, I was awake.  I then thought to myself "it must be an alarm on one of my roommate's phones!!!!  that a**hole." But as I began to wake up and think more clearly I realized that the sound that was now blaring in my ears was not the usual tone of their alarms.  I sat up in bed and sleepily asked Steve, my roommate, "is that the fire alarm?"  He lifted his head and a look of dread crossed his face as he got up out of bed and walked to the door.  He was only half way to the door when he said "yep that's the fire alarm."  I moped for a second and then got up to put some clothes on before I made the trek outside.  My brother seemed to not realize what was happening and just lade in bed as Steven and I got ready.  I grabbed some shorts and a shirt and threw them on his bed saying "get dressed the fire alarm's going off."  Once we were all ready we slowly stumbled down the hallway to the stairs and then outside, where we were met by roughly 60 other students in the same situation as us.  I would say that they had tired faces with aggravated looks but I honestly couldn't see them without my glasses or contacts.  We waited as patiently as possible and the thought finally arose, what if this isn't just a fire drill?  This made me worry for a minute but if it was at least we were out and safe.  But it was just a drill, so we stumbled back up the stairs pissed off because we were forced out of bed at 12:20a.m. by some one who thought it was a good time to have a drill. 
     None of this was fun but probably the worst part of this entire experience is the fact that my brain began to race when I got back into bed.  I couldn't stop thinking how the situation would've been different if we had seen smoke in the hallway or even flames.  This thought didn't even begin to leave my mind for at least an hour, meaning that I lost a good hour and a half of sleep because of a fire drill.  My third fire drill at Blanco hall to be exact.

Goodbye stress!

I've really been applying everything we talked about last class, as far as stress and how to manage it, to my life. Learning how to manage stress is very important for me because when I'm stressed, I'm EXTREMELY stressed and it shows. It takes a huge toll on my well-being as a whole so discussing ways to deal with it has been very beneficial lately. I think the main point that stuck with me most was the idea of separating things that cause stress into two categories; things I have control over, and things I do not have control over. The things I have control over are things that I can take action on, such as studying more. I realized that everything else I was stressing over before were all things that I had no control over, such as tests, my boyfriend and family, and so on. These are all things that I typically stress the most about but can cope with better now after the presentation given in class because I've learned to be more laid back when dealing with them.

I'm finally beginning to develop better eating and sleeping patterns due to the presentation as well. Before the presentation, I honestly went off of about three hours of sleep alone every night and would have hardly any motivation to do anything the next day. Lately, I'm beginning to get at least seven hours in and I feel so much better. I feel like I've been far more productive this week because of it. I also started grabbing breakfast before my first class in the morning and that gives me much more energy as well. In taking on these new habits, I feel a lot happier and less stressed than before. It makes me really appreciate the fact that I'm enrolled in this university seminar class, honestly. It's very helpful in a lot of ways that will help me survive college without going insane and I am very grateful for that.

Fun/Stress

So this past weekend was AMAZING. My boyfriend came down from Dallas, and for his birthday I surprised him with concert tickets to his favorite artist. The concert was pretty fun! We actually had a really good time. At the end of the concert people were handing out flyers to a concert tomorrow which ironically was one of my favorite artist. I got tickets so I’m psyched about it!!! The only bad thing was I’ve been stressed out this whole week because I’ve had 3 test… midterms are so stressful!!! The worst part is all the homework on top of it. I feel like teachers shouldn’t give a lot of homework during midterms, it’s stressful enough but what can you do?! This weekend is homecoming and I’ve heard it’s a pretty eventful time, so hopefully there will be a lot of things to do Saturday. On another note, Thanksgiving is in 35 days and I can’t wait to go back home for a week, I’m beyond excited, mostly for the food.  These school days need to speed up!!!