mood of a student in relation to expectations

my few months here very have been filled with the feels of sorrow, loss, envy and a powerful lust for knowledge then i currently have in my palms. i need time to figure out how i need to move on with my life since may 31 of  this year. but atlases their is no more time for me the future has become the present and past has turned into the scars of the heart and soul!