That Guilty Feeling

So this week has been pretty good, but I'm starting to feel really bad. I mean not physically but like a guiltily feeling. I have been having to ask my dad for a lot of money lately because I have a lot of things that need to be paid off. I would pay for it but my dad doesn't want me to get a job until next year and everytime I try telling him I wanna get one he gets mad. We don't have a lot of money and I'm not one who always asks for things I want. I always try to not spend money and be really thoughtful of other peoples time and money. I don't know, I'm just feeling guilty and I hate feeling this way :/